I feel like something's happened, no movement in my life,
its like I'm stuck in neutral, my dreams are out of sight--Guppie and
Flounder
"i can't remember the last time you cared about anything.the last time you allowed yourself to be seen"
today was a pretty good day....first was eh....it's always eh...it's algebra...nothing amazing...although i think i might be in danger of failing that class..which would suck cause i've never failed any class...the closest i've come was a 72 on my progress report last year for english (those damn summer reading tests..grr)...band was...eh...always eh.. :) ... chemistry was ok...we did a lab..i think i'm getting out of that class tomorrow...i'm going to mr. steele's class..oh yippee :) ... then i got to see ja...that was pretty awesome....but i'll write more about that in the next paragraph :)...fourth..english...i failed the vocab quiz...it's all good..so did everyone else....lunch was awesome...brandon stuck a safety pen through my hand....i wanted to..it was tempting..so i had to... :) ... it didn't really hurt...except when he was pulling it out....that sounds weird..yes i know...i still have the little holes...it's weird...it's like addicting though..i was trying to do it during spanish..allen was looking at me all funny.... :)fifth...spanish...that's kinda a class where i don't do anything...so that's cool....heh...plus ms. garcia likes me...represent the last name (lal)...sixth....history...oh joy..the bible dude...haha....i don't like that class cause that's like all he talks about..it bothers me....but the class is fun...like the people, just not the class....debate....that's seventh....i love debate cause i don't do anything....but now she's starting to get all evil and she's gonna make us start working on our cases...grr...i'm not going to be in a debate event anyway..the only reason i got in that class was to work on my persuassive speaking skills so i can go to state this year..(represent...)....so that was my day....go me...huh?...
"I'm not ready to turn my back on you yet"
ok...now on to the whole ja thing....i was thinking about him today when i came home from practice....i was thinking about why i like him....i came up with so many different things...he's such an amazing person...he's smart, funny, hot (heh)...we have a lot in common....he's a great boyfriend...i've been with him for what, two days...and he's been...like..wow....he's bought me breakfast...and he's done some really sweet things....i don't really understand why he's going out with me..but i'm not complaining...ya know...but we're two totally different people...he's popular, athletic, all...prep.. (nothing bad there...at least not him..others yeah..not him) and i'm friendly (haha....you get it i hope..cause i'm not explaining it), total band nerd...and so not prep....idk..maybe he wanted a change.ya know...i really hope i don't do anything to screw this up....although it seems too good to be true....ok..i'm not going to think like that, cause when i do, something bad happens....so good thoughts..happy thoughts....
"we never spoke in the words that we want"
i'm so gonna fail algebra..yay....i forgot my damn book in the band hall...grr....maybe someone can help me....we're gonna embarass ourselves tomorrow....it's gonna be sad..i don't want to go..cause i know i'm gonna end up yelling at someone..i need to start being nicer to people...i'm nice if you're nice to me...that's how i am though..if we're practicing and you keep messing up....and you haven't fixed it..i'm going to tell you something...and those little fish don't understand the whole...not moving while you're at attention....so if we suck..it's not my fault..i did my job...i need to be calm for tomorrow....someone help out please :)
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